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Part 2 of 7 ... almost, or ..... To Have and Have Not  

tomboytgirl68 55T
23 posts
9/24/2020 1:08 am
Part 2 of 7 ... almost, or ..... To Have and Have Not


Hi. After about 3 plus hours I just finished Part 2 of 3 of the above and clicked the "Add" below and it ... is gone. It was relatively long as I wanted get a certain place that would be a natural break ... well, as you can see, ultimately arrived nowhere.

So, I jotted down a couple of paragraphs like right now include the above plus I was going just get and let my out and see if there is a moon and dry my eyes and make some more coffee and return here and just do it again.

Hey, yes I did promise a while ago continue this and even included recognition that I have been delinquent from your perspective but from mine, major stuff occurred that involved what amounted a conundrum ... complications ... and among other things, immediate emotions then and now. What I would have related then is not what I am relating now. Admittedly, selfishly, at first, I could think about was myself without consideration any other perspective. I had let time pass a bit so I could try leaving out much of the emotional stuff and bias and objectively as I thought I could achieve, then offer myself a narration of it with as much drama and bias left out.

I say "offer myself" as I know I am not writing this in a secret diary or etching it a cave wall. I said somewhere the beginning of my blog that I chose this medium always be aware that someone might be looking over my<b> shoulder </font></b>so speak, thus keeping in touch with reality. Actually, most of the content is from my comments from diaries, journals, etc. and my whole purpose was to pull it all together with minimum speculation, judgments, drama, bias now as it really is not relevant to what was then. And in the end, if I ever get there, I want to maybe take time to read it all and specul etc. then or maybe never read it but rather see patterns that morphed into "", my "self".

I saw no moon out there and did feel it is raining and if the forecast is correct then it will continue for a while this morning. I know I am tired and will do a better job with Part 2 of 3. or whatever, tomorrow or rather later today. So I have decided to try it again later.

It should go faster now. The only thing I will be changing is yes, I will still try putting myself back to whatever and relate it but this time I will not keep qualifying what I remember happening like prefacing everything continually with a qualification like instead of saying ...she said something like, "hey, the sky is falling!". Instead, I will just say ... she said, "hey, the sky is falling!" I hope all this is clear; it seems so right now. I'm going bed.
...xox Kaycee.

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