Age difference
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Posted:Aug 30, 2018 8:52 pm
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I have to say that when I came across this on cam I was a little taken aback. The age difference between these 2 are only 6 but the appearance looks like a father and duo.
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About John
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Posted:Aug 23, 2018 7:52 am
Last Updated:Aug 23, 2018 8:03 am
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It seems only fitting that I started with a John and ended with a John. I’m sure if you have read my blog, you’d know I have a thing for big tall guys. At 6’ 4”, John got me all wet and creaming. When he expressed interest in me and I read that he’s 6’4”, my lady boner was up. When you told me he enjoys giving oral, I was fully erect. Nipples harden and pussy drenched. When he told me that lingerie is a must for him- I soaked myself creaming. I wanted to meet him quickly split. Normally, I won’t meet someone so fast but I was listing after him and fantasizing about all the great sex we can have together. Checking off some of my kinky fantasies of being with a big tall guy who can toss me around and giving it to me good when my pussy is primed from all the eating he will give me.
We met at an oyster happy hour and when I saw him- I wanted him to bed me over the bar and eat me out immediately. I wanted him to push me face down on the bar. Ripe my dress off. Yank my panties off and go to town on my dripping wet pussy. Then I wanted him to unzip so he can ram his cock deep in me until I’m screaming for him to own my pussy and give it to me deep and hard.
Instead we chatted and I was rabbling in about work and a lot of other nonsense because I was so turned on. The bartender was giving me the eye a few times and I thought it would be so hot if John would eat me out while I suck on the bartenders cock. That would be an amazing MFM experience. I was sex dreaming about how good the bartenders can fuck me in my pussy while John fucked me in the mouth. I was dripping and clenching sitting there talking to John and eye fucking the bartender. * side note - I would totally fuck this bartender as this isn’t my watering hole.
I was torn between going back with John and fucking my brains out and being a good girl so we can have something ongoing. When we were saying our goodbyes- John did offer to meet again to fuck. I told him I would be available this coming weekend as I had guests with me last weekend. He text me later telling me he wanted to eat me out. I think I lost my shit with what happen with Kevin disappearing on me that I went off on a rant to him about who I wanted to have something ongoing and wanted him to be on the same pay. He did not replied. I asked him when he was free to meet. Again no reply. I deleted his texts and moved on. Also blocked him so I can purge myself from this icky feeling of being desperate. After a dry summer and having Kevin ghost me after a fun night with the allusion of another meeting. Then John ignoring my texts, I’m giving up on my illusion hunt for a FWB and getting back on the of dating to be in a relationship. If I’m going to be made to feel icky- I might as well get it from a boyfriend.
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FWB questionnaire
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Posted:Aug 23, 2018 7:02 am
Last Updated:Aug 27, 2018 1:22 pm
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Here are some questions I should’ve asked when I was seeking a FWB relationship.
1.What is your name or what you prefer to be called?
2. Married, attached or single?
3. What are you looking for on Meelp?
4. Have you ever had an ongoing FWB relationship?
5. Define what is a friends with benefits?
6. What are your sexual kinks and proclivities?
7. What are some of the sexual fantasies you want to check off you list or want to do again?
8. What would turn you off with a FWB?
9. How many lovers have you had?
10. Would you leave after or stay the night?
11. Do you like cuddling afterwards?
12. Condom or skin?
13. Do you give Oral pleasures? Receiving oral pleasure?
14. Do you enjoy your prostate played with during sex?
15. How many lovers do you have currently?
16. Have sex on the first date?
17. How many lovers have you met from Meelp or from dating apps?
18. Do you enjoy being watched?
19. Three sum? Opposite sex? Same sex?
20. Do you enjoy rough sex? Explain how rough?
21. How many times would you like to cum?
22. Are you just after an occasional sex partner to fill in your free time?
23. Do you like fore play?
24. What is fore play to you?
25. Do you like sex in clothes?
26. Do you like lingerie? If so, describe what fabric, color and types?
27. Do you like latex outfit? Shiny or matte?
28. Do you have good stamina?
29. Do you think a woman is a slut for enjoying sex like a man?
30. Have you ever ghosted someone after you had sex but led them on that you were interested in more?
31. Do you lose interest if a girls fucks you immediately?
32. Do you enjoy the thrill of the chase than having sex?
33. Are you into hardcore BDSM?
34. Ever attend a sex party?
35. Ever been part of group sex with multiple men and one woman?
36. Do you enjoy giving anal?
37. Would no anal sex be a deal breaker?
38. Are you experienced in public sex?
39. What are turn offs for you that will make you lose interest in a girl?
40. Can you host exclusively?
41. Would hanging out be a no-on for you in a friends with benefits relationship?
42. Do you like sex in hotels?
43. Do you enjoy choking during sex?
44. How big is your cock?
45. Do you enjoy talking dirty during sex?
46. Are you good giving sensual massages?
47. Would you ever fuck another women while being watched?
48. Spit or lube?
49. Do you drive?
50. What is your ideal body type?
51. Do you travel a lot for work?
52. Do you work a lot?
53. Do you have ? Share custody living arrangements?
54. What are forbidden conversation topics?
55. Have roommates?
56. When was the last time you were tested?
57. What are hard no’s for you during sex?
58. What is a casual sexual relationship to you?
59. Do you enjoy open polyamory relationships?
60. Would it be ok to fuck around if we tell each other about it?
61. If I write about our sex session, would this turn you off? Or lose interest?
Sadly, I didn’t asked all of these questions and it’s led to some really bad choices in the men I’ve had sex with. While some were memorable experiences, none became a friend with benefits. Guys just want to fuck on their time and never want to hang like friends. It’s too emotionally involved for them.
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Explanations of sexual relationship tiers
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Posted:Aug 21, 2018 2:31 pm
Last Updated:Aug 21, 2018 2:53 pm
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I feel like there is some confusion about what these terms are. I will explain all the terms as I view them so you guys can understand where my head is at and clear up some confusion.
Friend with benefits- This is when both of you actually invest time in becoming friends after you find each other fuckably hot. It means you want to spend time meeting to do sexual exploration. Fulfilling and expanding each other's sexual kinks and proclivities. This is the most ideal sexual relationship for me. This is when I’ve find a man intellectually, physically and sexually exciting. The guy invests some time in getting to know about my sexual proclivities and kinks. Getting to know each other in a friend manner so you can hang out. When a guy posts that he isn't looking for pen pal; I pretty much write him off. For me this part is important to build trust and comfort because in order to be open and not fear judgement. Also, I like hotel sex and public sex so I want someone I can go out roaming around five boroughs looking for fun spots to get it on. Being comfortable and being on the same page for sexual exploration seems only possible in a FWB relationship. I’ve never had any true FWB but I did have a fuckbuddy that was close to it. We had an on and off thing for a couple of years until he found a serious girlfriend.
Fuck buddy This is when you find each other fuckably hot. You establish a regular fuck meets. This is your backup who is available whenever the need strikes. You’re on friendly terms but don’t really hang out other for sex. I’ve had this before and it is really fun but there isn’t a lot of sexual exploration involved. It’s mostly about having someone available to scratch an itch. I’ve had a handful of these when I was younger and in between relationships. Some were better than others but overall it’s good for hot sex if not the most adventurous sex.
Hookups This is when you meet someone hot for dating but it turns out to be sex because you don’t see it going anywhere but still want to fuck the person to make the date worthwhile. I’ve only done this once. Generally, if a guy asks me out and I go; I’m genuinely interested in him for a relationship. But once I did go on nowheresville date. He was fuckably hot so I hooked up with him. Usually hookups are one nighters or have the lifespan of 2-3 meets before it dies or moves into a fuck buddy situation.
Bootycalls This is when you have a late night urge and can’t sleep until you cum because masturbating to porn simply isn't cutting it. You skim through all your contacts to look for someone you had sex with who will be desperate enough to come over in the middle of the night to fuck and leave. I think this is often confused as a hookup nowadays. I’ve never gone over to a guys place for a booty call but I have called in a few booty calls in my younger days. I’ve never had a guy who won’t come over when I called for some late night relief and leave right after. Booty calls seem silly when you hit your 30s.
One nightstands This use to be you’re out at a bar or outing. Nowadays, you can get on an app. Swipe on someone hot and get match. After some flirty text you meet at your place or your matches. If you meet at a bar, you do some flirting and drinking. After some sexy chatting you offer to either go home or back at your hottie’s place for a night of sex. Generally, if you leave right after or stay until the morning if you’re too drunk to make the trek home. Then do walk of shame home in the morning if you don’t have cab money which is mostly the case because you have spent it all on drinks. For apps- you can meet for a drink and go to a place for fucking. Unless neither of you want to make niceties and just go over for straight sex. Most of the time it doesn’t require sleepovers because there is always an Uber to pick you up. There’s never the walk of shame unless you can’t get an Uber ride home. I’ve done a couple of one night stands. Well 2 1/2. The first one was at a birthday party. I got so drunk and horny I agreed to go back to my hotel. When we made it back to the hotel I lost my bear goggles and saw who I invited back to my hotel. He stoned Out of his mind and didn’t want to leave. Eventually I did manage to get him to leave. The second time I did it on a dare. I went out with some girlfriends on a pickup and take home dare game. The guy was lackluster. He lived around from the bar. I did go home with him. I was trying to make the best of the situation. He couldn’t ask for oral but pushed my head so he never go oral. I let him fuck me because I was horny. He had beer dick. He fucked until he came and then passed out. After that I left myself out and took the train home in the middle of the night. The last one night stand was with a friend of some friends. The sex was enjoyable but fuzzy. I’ve never done a one night stand with any apps. These are extremely sad when you're anywhere over 30 in my opinion.
One offs and drop offs This is the last one I want to touch upon since I've only experienced them after being on Meelp. This is when you meet someone hot and interesting who you want to have something ongoing with but either you or your playmate decides you don’t want to meet again. It can be bad sex, not matching sexually or lack of availability. I’ve had mostly one-offs here. There have been a couple of guys who I’ve met twice and became drop offs. One I'd dropped off because he was a one trick pony. The other dropped me off because he found someone he had better sexual chemistry with over me. Sadly, these kind of playdates happen more often than I think from all the men and women I've spoken to here. Finding a FWB is almost everyone's elusive unicorn. There have been two people I had spoken to who did find a FWB. So it isn't an impossibility. Just elusive.
That’s all the tiers of sexual relationships as I know it and my experiences with it. I hope this clears up any confusion most of you guys have here and what you’re actually looking for so I don’t keep wasting my time with people who don’t know what they are after.
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Pet Peeves about Meelp guys
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Posted:Aug 21, 2018 2:05 pm
Last Updated:Apr 15, 2024 9:30 pm
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Updated because what I wrote was deemed hateful even if it's truthful.
These are the main reasons why I not interested or start chatting up with a guy here.
1. Guys who don't read my profile before writing me, wasting both our time
2. Married and attached men. I don't with other women's property
3. Crass guys who write rude messages like I should be privileged that you want sex with me
4. Immediately ask or tell me I should met you because you're at home or at a hotel. Not a on-call . If you want one for one.
5. GuyS who try to slut shame me. Dude you're here for sex too. Maybe more hard up for it than me.
6. Young guys who say age is a number. Not into any creepy cougar fetish. No. No. No. It's been my experience that young guys rarely live alone or have good hygiene.
7. guys- most older men look older than my dad. I don't have any fetish. It's creepy.
8. Guys who pester me for a reason why not interested when I've extended the courtesy of writing back. Blocked.
9. Guys who have blank profile. No pics and no details. Why should I waste my time when you can't spare a little effort to make an impression. Kinda says you're just going to be lazy in bed. Making me do all the work.
10. Dominant bulls who tell me what I will like and not like. There goes my sexual satisfaction
more to come as I come across them...
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About Kevin
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Posted:Aug 5, 2018 10:35 am
Last Updated:Aug 18, 2018 4:27 pm
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Perhaps it’s become a thing with me after my wild night with Steen last year. I do have to say that I have a think for distinguish bald men. Or perhaps it’s something as basic as me watching a lot of porn with Johnny Sins lately to get off. Maybe it’s the bald bartender at my favorite bar whom I’ve been fantasizing about fucking but won’t. (I don’t piss where I drink.) Anyway, after two chats with other members where one guy was flakey and the other guy was passive about meeting again after we’ve met. I became proactive in reaching out to someone for a possible short term quick fix. I came upon Pete, a guy in NJ who is older than my usual preference. His pics were hot on his profile. I was hesitant but curious since I had a fantastic time with Steen, I thought why not. The pics on Pete’s profile are of his hot body. Not as good as Steen but they are definitely fuckable. We’ve chatted for a bit when I came upon Kevin’s profile. Kevin is attractively fuckable and bald as well. Definitely has a better face than Pete but not as hot as Pete’s body. He lives a far distance from me. Not sure if that is geographical desirable but I was worked up and frustrated with my locals being unreliable for the time vested so I thought I’ll chat with both for a bit. I found out that Pete and Kevin are both in geographically unreachable places for me. After chatting with Pete for a bit- he lost interest so I focus on Kevin. I have to say I enjoyed chatting with Kevin. Over the course of the week- I knew I wanted to fuck Kevin if we can arrange it. That’s what I like about Kevin- he’s proactive in getting things to happen. We arrange to meet- I picked the place to grab drinks and he booked the hotel for a just in case we want to fuck backup.
On the night we met- I have to say- Kevin wasn’t as hot in person as his pics. I definitely think it has to do with what he was wearing more than what he looked like. He looked liked his pics and not as tall as I would’ve liked but I have a Lurch fetish so guys who are 6’ aren’t as tall as I like my bald men. But I digress.
I knew I would fuck Kevin before the night was over. He is easy going and not overtly aggressive when we talked about sex. It was like we were on a normal date. We had a couple of drinks and had dinner before we left to go back to his hotel. It took us longer to get back to the hotel than it should’ve because I let Kevin navigate us instead of taking lead since he said he knew how to get back. In taking the long scenic route where we got lost twice- he worked me up to a tizzy with his arm rubbing against my erect left nipple. My pussy was getting drench in the walk because I was so turned on. We made out a few times on the way back to his hotel. If we were not in NYC where there are plenty of people walking about- I would’ve had him find us a deep nook of a doorway so he can give me a quick hard fuck. But I was not so lucky. Finally I pulled out my phone after getting lost a second time and got us back to his hotel. We had to take 2 elevators up to his room and made out in both. If there weren’t any cameras I would’ve made the elevator fantasty of mine a reality that night.
When we got back to his room- I insisted we should get clean up. I’m all about cleanliness before sex. He half helped me out of my clothes and took off his. When we’re both naked- I told him to finger me to see how wet he has made me. Kevin dipped his fingers into my pussy and fed me my juice. He told me he liked how wet I was. We got into the shower quickly and rinse off. Usually, not for going down on a guy first but since we were in the shower and this is one of my sex fantasy- I went along with it. I got down on my knees and sucked him. After a few sucks- Kevin grab my shoulder and proceed to fuck my mouth. He pulled my hair as he fucked my mouth deeper. It did hurt to have my hair pulled. But otherwise it was very hot and sexy. Mmmmm, I love his thick massive cock going in and out out my mouth. Since he isn’t too long- he can just graze the back of of my throat without making gag or relax my muscles. I massaged his ball and ran my hands along his inner thighs. I really enjoyed Kevin’s dick in my mouth. Having him moan as he fucked . Just as I was about to get up and have Kevin eat out. He pulled up and pushed up against the wall. First with my back against it as he finger . Then he turned around and fingered from behind. I came from his magic fingers for the first time in the night. He made me lick the cum off my fingers.
We got under the shower and Kevin washed me up with soap. After I got out of the shower I was ready to jump into bed and spread myself out for a hot night. However, Kevin pulled me back and gently dried me off gently. After he throughly dried me off- I went to lie down in the bed while he dried himself off. I was lying in bed spread out for Kevin to do what he will. I sucked his cock for a bit. I have to say that he is very thick. My cock sucking isn’t what it should be since I’ve been out of practice for about a and he is very thick.( I hope to see him again so I can master sucking on his cock. It would be a fun thing to do.) Kevin took his cock out of my mouth and asked to go over the other side of the bed with my head will hang out over. I knew he wanted to fuck my mouth this way. It was exactly what I wanted to do again with a big thick cook since the last time I did it. I hung my head draped over the side so Kevin can get his cock align to fuck my mouth deep in. He held my head angle and proceeded to fuck my mouth. I was so turned on. I spread my legs wide open because the on thing better than what he was doing is if I had another guy between my legs eating me out. Kevin must have sensed it because he bent over and ate me out. The man is very good at pussy eating. We 69 each other. It was so good and I was going crazy with how Kevin had been able to make me cum so easily and so often. Kevin was ready to fuck me st this point. He pulled out a condom and sheathed himself. When he slowly slide his cock it- it felt so good. I loved every inch of his cock sliding into my wet pussy. When he reach out to choke me, I went a little crazy grinding into his cock and thrashing around because I was so turned on and cumming so hard. He fucked me so good and hard that I was creaming and cumming nonstop. When he told me he was ready to cum- I lost it and demanded he cum inside me. I was screaming at him to cum so I can feel his load in me. After a few more pumps- he did cum and collapse on top of me. I love the fact that Kevin did not slide after me after he came. He gently pump my pussy until he was soft. This is something all guys can take a lesson from.
I was thirsty at this point so Kevin got us a couple glasses of tap water. I hate how parched I become after sex because so vocal. I swallow my glass of water and needed more. But was too sated to move to get some. I asked Kevin to get me another glass.
We went back to laying down for some rest. Kevin is a cuddler so we did some cuddling where I felt him up and played with his dick and balls. He returned the favored. Normally, I would love him fingering my pussy but I do have to say I sore- being in a long celibacy and with his thick cock- I had to ask him to be gentle with . In order to get some gentle relief, I climb on top of his cock, parted my clit and slowly wet hump him. It wasn’t something Kevin was into. He asked me to feed my pussy to him. I climb to the top of the bed and lowered my pussy into his waiting mouth. He had his tongue out as I lowered my pussy into his mouth. I loved how good Kevin is in eating pussy. I grinded his mouth with my dripping wet pussy. The more Kevin eat me out the wetter I got. He did eat me out good and plenty. I was so malleable at this point. I lay back to give Kevin a breathing break. Kevin fingered me deep and hard where it was painful. I had to ask him to be gentle because I just getting back to sex. At this point Kevin had an uncluttered view of my pussy. He love how pretty my pussy is and told this during the course of our time together. After a breather- I had Kevin eat my pussy again. Finally after more times that I can take- I slid down to blow Kevin. I tried to suck him but I realized that my blowjob isn’t up to par as it once was. I need to practice. I know there was more teeth than I like. I did find out that Kevin does enjoy a good ball massage with some soft nail scraping. We rested up for a little bit where we made out and cuddled a little bit. I do like Kevin massaging my tits while I roam all over his body with my hands.
Kevin wanted to fuck by the window after a bit of rest. I climb up on top of the cushioned window sill with my ass out ready for Kevin to ram his cock into my dripping wet cunt. Kevin grabbed a condom. Put it on and got to the back of me. With his hands on my shoulder he slid into my pussy hard. He proceeds fuck me deep and hard. I bent my back so my ass was up high and my pussy was in a better angle for Kevin to get his thick cock bury deeper into me. I was on fire looking out into the night with some of the lights on in some of the nearby office buildings. I am imagining some unlucky late night worker looking out and seeing Kevin pounding into my pussy and screaming for him to fuck deep and hard. He was grabbing my hair and yanking. That was painful and I need to tell him to stop this because it was very distracting you painful. He slapped my ass. I wasn’t into it but I can tell it made him hard and excited. While it wasn’t my thing. It wasn’t unpleasant so I let him slap my ass while he fucked. I was cumming and creaming all over myself because he was ramming into my pussy so hard. I kept begging him to keep fucking and never stop. I love talking dirty with Kevin because he is really good at it. When he told he was ready to cum. I came hard and arch my back up. Kevin pushed me down so he can get deeper into me. When he came inside me. I came again. I love how virile Kevin is. This man certainly knows how to fuck and make me cum. We do have great sexual chemistry.
We went to sleep after fucking in the window and some more making out. In the middle of the night- we got up and played again. Kevin has very good stamina and I love how he can go again and again with some really good pussy eating in between. I feel very sexy around him because he likes to stare at my pussy and eating me out.
When we were fucking for a third time- Kevin asks me to put on a condom On him. After I ripped open the packet- I couldn’t wait to put it on and have him buried in me. When he slid his cock into me it felt like a coming.ipropped some pillows under my ass so mynpussy is high enough for him to slid in and out of without bending. I love how he filled me up propped up like this. I was enflamed and cumming the moment his cock was in me. I told him to fuck me deep and hard. Own my pussy and give it to me good and hard. This drove Kevin to pound me good and hard. Telling me my pussy belongs to him. It only made me cum harder with him telling me how my pussy belongs to him. I came so hard that I couldn’t stop shaking. When he came for the third time. I almost incinerated. I love it when Kevin cums for me. I love to hear him grunt when he cums. It’s such a huge turn on.
We went back to sleep until the morning when we had 2 more sex session. The man is a sex machine. I love every moment of our play date. During the corse of the night- I was sated and horny at the same time. Sated from all the sex Kevin had delivered on. From his glorious pussy tongue and fingering of my pussy to the cunt creaming fuck he gave me- I was satisfied. But every time he touch me- from the full body hugs to his breast massages to the kisses to the nips- it all ignited the hunger I have to have him again. Unfortunately, my body was overworked from the gym, a long work week and the divine sex sessions I just had with Kevin- I could do anything until I recover somewhat. So we only petted each other during the corse of our sleep.
In the morning, Kevin gave my pussy a full service morning wake up call. He licked my ass to pussy and delved in deep. I was a lot tender so I asked for a reprieve while I sucked on his cock. Like I said- I’m out of practice so I couldn’t do it for long. I stroke him and slid a finger back to see if he liked a bit of ass play. When Kevin moaned in pleasure, I started to rim him with my index finger while stroking him. After some bit of rimming, Kevin leaned over so I had a better angle to what I was doing. I slid my finger tentatively in and out to gauge his reaction as this is something new I’m doing. I’ve only done it to one other guy. The more Kevin moan the more daring I became. I had my index finger going in deeper and faster to the rhythm of how I was stroking his cock. Kevin said he was close to cumming and I was looking forward to him blowing his hot load ont my tits. But he didn’t. He lean up and we went under covers to pet each other a little bit. I wanted my pussy serviced at this time so Kevin asked me to mount his face so he can eat me out. He tongue me deep and in no time I was cumming all over him. I leaned back with my bald pussy exposed for Kevin’s viewing. He played with my pussy with his hands while I lie there like his plaything. I told him as much and he laughed. I loved how I was on my back facing him while he was propped against the headboard. I was having sexy thoughts of how nice it would be if I had my pussy played like this when I’m stressed at work. But what came out when I told Kevin was I want him to think about my pussy when he’s at work. He told me he wanted to make a video or take a pic. I didn’t answer because I’m not into documenting my sexcapes like most guys do. After a moment of silence where Kevin kept playing with my pussy. I cannot tell you how many times Kevin made me cum and quiver as I laid there like his personal toy for him to play with me as he please. I had to get more rest after Kevin used me as his plaything.
When we went back under the covers to get some rest. I told Kevin I wanted to go to th window and have him eat me out there for someone to see. However, Kevin turn this around- to him getting his cock sucked off. He climb on top and stood there. Since he’s just eaten me out, I can give into this one. I got on top of the window sill and on my knees. I patched my mouth into his cock and started to suck him the way he deserves. Then I ran my hand over his cock sliding backwards until I was feeling up his asshole. I inserted a finger in and started to pump in and out while my hot wet mouth was sucking him. I took him deep in and tried to deep throaty him. Not sure if I did or not as I was extremely turn on by the pleasure I was giving Kevin. Every moan he gave just made me want him deeper and harder into my mouth. When he told me he was going to cum- I popped his cock out but kept on fingering his asshole. I wanted his hot cum all over my tits. When he shot his hot load- he got my chest, arms and a bit on my neck. It was so hot to smear his hot cum all over my tits.
I went to clean up and shower afterwards because Kevin had a call to go into work. I dress and so did he after showing. I really like what he put on for work than his date outfit. Definitely more fuckably hot. I was hungry and wanted food but Kevin didn’t have time. He offered Starbucks coffee which I didn’t like. Instead I went to get breakfast and coffee by myself. We parted ways outside the hotel with plans to stay in touch. I definitely hope so because Kevin is a top rated guy for a FWB if we can make it work.
Right now- I and extremely gratified.
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About Jimmy
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Posted:Jul 27, 2018 8:39 pm
Last Updated:Aug 21, 2018 2:59 pm
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I’ve chatted with Jimmy for about a month and he had potential so I decided to meet him. I picked the place and time to meet. I happen to like to meet st hotel bars. What can I say- they are always nicely made up and the drinks are usually better than regular bar. at that age where I don’t really like going to loud bars I need to scream to be heard. Anyways, I picked a day where I can leave a bit early so I can get some to shower and change into something cool and refreshing. There’s no point in going to meet a potential guy I want to fuck without making him want to fuck me. But not about to put out all my wares either. Can’t put your and pony show in a first meet. Just be attractive enough to garner interest to take it to another meet.
Anyway, I was there first as Jimmytexted to say he was running late. I ordered 2 drinks and closed the tab. It wasn’t that I was opposed to jimmy buying me drinks but since I was there early and didn’t want to wait for a drink-I ordered one. It’s not like we’re meeting for a date or I can’t afford my own drinks. I hate it when girls do that dumb move of waiting for a guy to buy you a drink. It’s so archaic and patriarchal that I want to gag. It’s kinda tragic and pathetic when I see a girl sitting at the bar all dressed up sipping water and eyeing a mark to buy her a drink. I’ve never been that girl and not about to start now. I was just finishing my first drink when Jimmy showed up. He asked me if I wanted a drink or not. Since I had been just given my new drinks I told him I was good. He ordered a beer and came back to sit with me.
Jimmy is thinner than he looked in his pics which made him looked smaller than my estimation of him from his pics. He is a fuckable enough guy and I do find him attractive enough to have a FWB relationship with.
We sat and chatted for a long time. I honestly don’t know if he was interested or not. It seemed lukewarm on his side. I had to ask if he was interested or not meeting again and starting something. He said he was. I have to say- not use to someone being so passive who is interested. It kinda threw me for a loop. When he went to the bathroom, I had to really think about whether this would lead to what we both said we wanted. After he came back and we chatted some more- I needed to take my turn to the bathroom as I had 2 drinks and a glass of water. Before I went down I leaned in for a kiss which I think took him by surprised. I have to say for two scorpios. I thought the would be way hotter. But it wasn’t bad for a first kiss. I had to rush to go pee so I left him upstairs. When I came back I had order my third drink and it was a terrible mistake. That third drink got me drunk. It hit me pretty hard and fast. Luckily I had enough sense to order an Uber home. Jimmy walked me out and gave me a kiss and hug. not sure it was a good kiss since I felt sick. I rush into the car and was sick the whole ride home with the Uber drink hitting the brake with a lead foot every half block. I almost puked in the car but luckily didn’t.
I was so drunk and pukey the whole night. Woke up nauseous and with a headache. Seriously, that last drink Jimmy got me was 100 proof for how I felt the next 24 hours.
I have to say, kinda disappointed that there wasn’t this spark with Jimmy and . I don’t sense any real interest from him which is kinda disappointing too because we had great text and good conversation. Well at least the kind I would hope a FWB and I would have.
Well I can’t force a square peg into a round circle just because it looks good to . If Jimmy isn’t into it. I need to move onto other options.
Vibrator and porn stash. You’ll just have to do.
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Posted:Jul 27, 2018 7:44 pm
Last Updated:Jul 27, 2018 7:49 pm
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Given that there is a shelf life in having sexy hot sex- I’m starting to think that this whole friends with benefits is counterproductive to what I’m looking for here. I’m not into fucking a bunch of random guys who ask me from here. But in this whole waiting for someone who isn’t going to cum in for a one off- I’m in almost year long dry spell. While my vibrator and porn stash have given me plenty of orgasms and availability isn’t ever an issue. It is becoming a bit boring. Especially when I’m in the midst of summer where all the shirtless really met are out. I’m not noticing the women except when they are humping the guys on the grass in the parks. Given that this summer I’m in the office working away more than I’m out in the streets and park trolling the hot men of NYC. Perhaps this is why I’m not overheated like I had been in the past and looking for get relief here. The pickings on this site have been slimmer than usual because while some guys who have written me are hot- they just don’t fit into my narrative of what I’m looking for now. Every week I would get a bunch of emails and messages who lead to one possible guy who after a couple of exchanges turned out to be disappointments. Right now, I’ve chatted up with 2 guys for a few weeks now. I’ve gone to meet one and the other one is pending. I don’t think either one will work out because I’m getting the feeling again.
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Men and unrealistic sex
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Posted:Jun 24, 2018 7:59 pm
Last Updated:Jul 31, 2018 6:20 pm
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I understand this is a sex site for people to find someone to get their kinks and proclivities on but I have to say- men have a certain amount of perversion that is warped by porn- which by the way is a predominately run by men anyways so the summer classes shit you men want to do to women isn’t the kinda shit women want to do unless they are getting paid for it. Even then women- not little scared naive girl who don’t know better- will exercise their right of refusal.
Look!-I am not going to allow a man to paddle me. What part of I’m not into pain are you not clear on? I won’t let a man jam his “huge” cock up my ass. Most of you won’t let a pinky up your ass and you expect me to tack a cock up mine? Again- what part of I’m not into pain was I not clear on? I won’t allow a man to cum over my face. It’s gross and not at all sexy. Unless you find demeaning a woman exciting by spraying her then sure I guess but some men find women peeing on them hot too. Just not for me. No! I’m not into gangbangs just because I want to try having sex with two men. Talk about a Petrie dish of bacteria and stds. Gross. Really, smacking a woman’s face while jamming you cock in her face. I mean this is just bordering on domestic abuse to me. Nothing sexy there.
So men- I want to stress that just because I’m into sex does not mean I’ll open to all avenues of abuse and sick perversions. You need to leave those violent porn tendencies at home to jack off to because if you bring them over to me- I’ll shut it down. Seriously, if you don’t want your father doing that kinda shit to your mom, chances are I don’t want that shit done to me.
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PDA and intimate sexual touching
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Posted:May 23, 2018 10:33 pm
Last Updated:Jun 24, 2018 7:59 pm
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I once had a conversation with a guy friend of mine about my distain for PDA. He was shocked and wonder how I had been in long term relationships. I told him it is something I had to get my head wrapped around it as a form of compromise. But exes always complained that I’m not affectionate. I think it’s because I didn’t grow up in an environment of touchy feelies. That touching is reserved more for sexual interactions. I don’t like to be touch or have my space invaded unless it is someone I know like a friend who likes to hug or a lover who wants to initiate sex.
That being said, I like my breast massaged to initiate sex. I’m not into kissing to initiate sex. I think kissing is a sexual act and not really a passive sign of affection or something to initiate sex.
Also, I have given so many massages that I’ve stopped because it’s never reciprocated. It’s one of the very few things I like about being touch. Perhaps it’s because it feels really good, sexy and relaxing at once. So far I have only had one ex who knows how to give massages and that this is a huge turn on for me.
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What I’m really seeking with a FWB
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Posted:May 14, 2018 7:52 pm
Last Updated:Jul 25, 2018 6:26 pm
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Perhaps I was not clear in my previous post and rants about how difficult it is to find a true friend with benefits. Whether it’s here, Craigslist, tinder or IRL friends circle. Inevitably guys will think I want a boyfriend or something more. In truth, after speaking to a lot of guys here and getting their prospective on what they want; meeting guys who I thought were in the same page as me; going on some apps dates and talking to some girlfriends lately; I think I can clearly state what I’m looking for and why it is a near impossibility but I’m still hopeful of finding a quality guy who is on the same page as me.
A lot of guys get turn away by me for my three hardline dealbreakers. They are 1. married/attached men; 2. inappropriately aged boys/men 3. men who are into anal/scat/bdsm. There is another category of men I don’t find attractive because it’s too much like incest- East Asian men. I know there is a big category of incest porn out there which men seem to like. Culturally, I was brought us to think that kind of thing is gross. It’s why I’ve stop dating Asian guys when I reach my late 20s. Talk about lady boner killers. Yes, I can say I’ve had about half a rainbow assortment of cocks and not the full range. Standards and preferences being what they are. It works both ways as to why I’ve not had the full scale rainbow. But I digress. Let me get back on point.
I’m not looking for a traditional relationship in the sense of a man for companionship. I have a pretty good life and set in my way of life. Like some of you busy worker bee men who have settle into a bachelor lifestyle, women like me are coming to their own the same way the more successful we are in our lives. Like you men, women like me have sexual needs. Yes, sometimes those needs have lead us to waking up with the wrong person. After awhile, it does become meaningless sex and can become demoralizing. Which can lead to shame and regret if I ponder on it a bit longer than I should as I’m getting older. This can’t be how functional adults have come to normalize as a matter of fact. I would like to live my life as it is. I don’t want to change my life other than to add a male friend who’s company I enjoy to spend time with. I want to be attracted to the man because I want to have hot sex with him. This is what I mean by friends with benefits. I think there needs to be a comfort level of being friends and having that trust to explore our sexual fantasies and experiences with. In the beginning, when I first came ti this site, I use to tell guys I want to have hot sex with hot guys while they still think I have my shelf life as a woman. Also, I’m sure as I age, I’m not going to be as agile to do some of the more acrobatic still on my list list. Even after two years here, I’m already not feeling as limber as I use to when I first came here.
I am not as eager to meet hot guys as I used to be. I think some of it might have to do with a couple of years of abstinence couple with the idea of having hot sex with hot guys seem like a fun thing. But like anything in life. Too much of a gluttonous thing can really gross me out very quickly.
How I came into this site is not how many of you came to this site. I was talking to a friend about my dating life or lack there of one. After a few more drinks and my expounding on lack of sex after a long self imposed drought. That’s when she told me about Meelp.
I have signed in and you can read about most of my experience on this blog.
As I’m talking to more men here and girlfriends in my life. I’m going to spell out what I want and explain it by conversation I’ve had to clarify. I’ll start by telling you what I don’t want so as to further explain in written work for you guys to see because it is still not clear by just telling you some denser men who somehow think what I am clearly telling you is open for interpretations or exceptions to the rule.
I am not looking for a hookup. This means- do not message last minute asking me to meet you because you’re home alone and horny for relief. This is a booty call and as a guy you should have a backup list for this as I’m told. Also, do not message me last minute telling me you’re in town in a nice hotel and want to have fun. This is what hookers and are for- don’t be a cheap ass if you’re in town looking to cheat on your wife/gf. If you can’t afford it- it mean you can’t afford the divorce or breakup either.
I’m not looking for once offs. Friends with benefits in itself implies something long term. Makes me wonder if there is a frenemy with benefits? But that even involves a level of commitment of longevity.
I’m not into fuck buddies. If I was in my 20s I would round up a group of these instead of getting into milquetoast sex bf/gf relationships. Fuck buddies are just that- you meet to fuck but nothing else. If you run into each other outside of fucking circumstances- it can get awkward and embarrassing because you never had any sort of conversation other than how you like to fuck, where to fuck and when you’ll fuck. This person has seen you in the most embarrassing ugly face contortions without being able to carry a normal conversation.
More than ever, I realize a friend with benefits is what is suitable for me. I’ve spoken to a friend recently about how she has several men she dates on a rotation to fulfill her needs. She has one who she works with and go to dinner with who she has sex with because he’s steady and reliable. There is one she goes out with just to have hot sex. A couple of others she has not told me about yet. For her- it works because she’s into juggling and having a variety of options. At the same time, I’m talking to a friend who has been on a rotation of bad dates with unsuitable guys. She’s a mom of two who is recently divorced. I don’t think she knows what she wants because she’s only told me what she doesn’t want. This is what I find with a lot of friend of mine. Either they are recently divorced. Some with young some without. I think they’ve felt burned by the relationship so they know what they don’t want. A lot haven’t figured out what they do want. I told her, I don’t want to be in a relationship because I only have time and enough attention for a friends with benefits. What she told me is that is what she wants too because she doesn’t want to live with another man again because she likes her free time to spend with her friends when her ex has the . She doesn’t want to have another joint acount to tied with someone else because she has one with the ex for her . She likes her slush fun for herself. She just want a man who lives his own life who she can get together when her and social life allows it. However, she wants the man not sleep with other women if she’s in a friends with benefits relationship with him. Between the two of what these friends have said is where I lie with what I’m looking for in my friends with benefits man. I like my life for the most part to remain the same. I like what I do for work. I like my living arrangements. I like my social calendar. I like my financial situation to be my own. The only thing I would like to change is my sex life. I would like to find someone I am very sexually attracted to who I can have conversations with. I would like to go out and do social things that is more suited for a man/woman couple than going with a girlfriend. While one of my friend likes to have a selection in her sex partners and the other is only into monogamous sex. I’m in between that. I like to have my friend with benefits to have sex with other women I pick out while I watch and if possible fulfill my MFM fantasy with. As you can see I have a long list of thing I want to check off on my wishlist. Besides my hard nos, pretty much everything is open for discussion with the right to refusal by either parties.
So is what I’m looking for an impossibility? It seems so since I’ve had some good leads and have met some guys who I thought were good fits but it turns out it didn’t work out. Perhaps I’m not the good fit because most guys think... I honestly don’t know what they think because I will either loose interest or they will before I can form any sort of opinion. There are a couple of men who I’ve talked to who I’ve never met. I’m a bit worry about meeting because out talks have been really good. Sometimes I want to mash up a few of the good qualities of all the guys I’m interested in into one perfect friend with benefits suited just for me.
Anyways, I think I’m done with this rant and pretty soon I’m done with this site if I don’t find what I’m looking for by summer’s end.
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Fruitless rant
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Posted:May 14, 2018 3:32 pm
Last Updated:May 14, 2018 5:20 pm
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I realize men and boys alike do not read my profile. Those who do read it and fall under the category of guys I am not interested in seem to always think they are the exception to my rule. Or these guys think women here are uneducated desperate horny women who have low self esteem and no standards. Hate to break it to you men like this. It’s fucking 2018! Women like good sex. We are educated. We’re not desperate because sex toys sales are in an uptick. Porn is readily available to us as it is to you. There is less of a stigma of fucking younger guys so our pool of hot bodies are just as readily available to us as it is to you. Plus, we have centuries of not millenniums of keep ourselves in shape as imposed by all the men who came before you. And you have carried on this standard here even if you look like you hit the wall a few time and turned your body into a round blob. I’m not saying I’m in the best shape but at least I try to not be round. Nor am I saying that I need someone who looks like he’s a fashion model. At the end of the day, no women wants a man who is prettier than herself. It’s been my experience that those men are either gay or can’t really fuck because he’s is use to being serviced. A guy who who is a little rough around the edges is way sexier than someone is is pretty to look at. Come on, ask any who who’ll they want to fuck more. Not who they want to stare at but fuck? It’s why Daniel Craig is more successful than Pierce Brosnan. That being said rough around the edge doesn’t mean being ugly, unkempt and foul smelling. Or being a hateful twat of announcing how you like to dominate me. Like I said, it’s fucking 2018 and women like to take charge of their own bodies.
Wow, this was not the post I had intended but I guess as I’m going into my 3rd summer here. I’m pretty peeved by the men and boys alike here. Before I enter into another summer of meeting guys. I need to get this off my chest.
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Wishlist: Fucking to porn
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Posted:Dec 27, 2017 12:47 pm
Last Updated:Jul 22, 2018 5:53 pm
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I’ve tried to make this happen a few times with the few out of town visitors I’ve had met. This was a request of mine. To get fucked while watching porn. So far it hasn’t happen yet because the guy wasn’t able to deliver the porn on a big screen tv as I’ve requested. I’m not sure why it’s so hard to buy a hdmi cable to hook a laptop to the TV in the room and get a porn video on. Other than the guy is cheap or a cheating spouse/boyfriend. I’ve given up on finding a visiting playmate to fulfill this wish item. I think it would be easier to get a regular guy to do this with me. Seems less disappointing this way.
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