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Begininning again
Posted:Aug 14, 2018 6:12 pm
Last Updated:Sep 11, 2018 7:34 am
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Have a little bit of time away from helping kids sort through their myriad of life drama, so I thought I'd get working on the blog.
A old friend of mine, from this site asked where my blog was. Told them it was deleted along with my old profile and she immediately chastised for not getting it back up. There's a joke in there somewhere, but I'm going to let it pass. Anyways, it seems I'm susceptible to goading, so here we go.

I have played the guitar and sang for god knows how many years. I was sure I was going to be a rock star in high school/college, but I'll let you guess how that turned out.

Since then, it's been hit and miss. I'll put the guitar down for a couple of years at a time, which is surprising if you've seen my bedroom. haha Only a chosen few will understand that line. Then i pick it up again and learn some new stuff and hopefully write some new songs. I'll start off with a song i wrote a few years back about a recurring dream. And a newer one. I'll try to remember to update it, but to be honest, I can go years with writing nothing, then spit out 15 songs in a month.

BTW. All the lyrics I post have been copyrighted.
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Take me as I am
Posted:Aug 14, 2018 6:59 pm
Last Updated:Aug 22, 2018 6:02 pm
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Ok, this one is more about relationships over the last 5 years. very honest about my thoughts that I really don't think I want to get married again. Been divorced for quite a while. Yet it always seems that, though I make that point up front. And it's agreed upon, most have ended up with me being the bad guy, who doesn't want to get married. I don't mind being a bad boy, but i hate being the bad guy.

Verse
You ask me who I want to be,
always just the man you see.
It's been so long since I tore down those walls.
Been here once or twice my friend,
Never like the way it ends.
When smiles turn into tears and the world seems to fall.
Watch it fall.

Chorus
It's really not that hard to just take me as I am,
You tell me what you need to live,
It's just the one thing I can't give.
And I don't want to be the one who makes you cry.
So if you have to leave, I understand.
It's a shame you couldn't take me as I am.

Verse
I'd love to see you one more night,
I know that won't make it right,
But i really hate to see us end like this.
You never had to suffer lies,
my heart was never in disguise.
So if you have to leave, why can't it be with a kiss.
Oh my friend.

Chorus
It's really not that hard to just take me as I am,
You tell me what you need to live,
It's just the one thing I can't give.
And I don't want to be the one who makes you cry.
So if you have to leave, I understand.
It's a shame you couldn't take me as I am.

Instrumental, then
Repeat Chorus with

It's a shame you couldn't take me as I am.
Why couldn't you just take me as I am.
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Grocery Shopping
Posted:Sep 19, 2018 5:17 pm
Last Updated:Sep 21, 2018 4:56 am
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I was chatting with someone from the site, who by the way has my head spinning in confusion, which is a hard thing to do to me. But we were talking about relationships, long distance, what we looked for, what we have experienced. It got me thinking of my relationships over the last 13 years. What I refer to as my HD period. Happily Divorced.

Was thinking about not only the women I've dated, but more so in how I met them. There were some from here. Some from the match site. Some I met just meandering around, the beach, out for dinner etc.

Which reminded me of my all time funniest, strangest meet I had. I'm going to call her, hmmm Stacy. Love that name, name of my first childhood love. Anyways, I digress.

I'm out grocery shopping one Friday as usual. It just happens to be Valentines Day. I was without a significant other for the first time, so knew I wasn't going to be spending much money besides the daughters of course. So the grocery store I go to is giant. They have everything, including a nice floral dept. I decided it would be fun to pass out roses. So, I go over to the floral dept and buy 48 long stemmed roses. The lady asks if I want them in a vase or wrapped. I tell her to just lay them in the front of my cart. She looks at me weird, I get that a lot, but she does it anyway.

Now off I go shopping. But every time I see an unaccompanied lady...I pull out a rose, give it to her, say...Happy Valentines day. Walk off and continue shopping. haha This goes on..and I keep shopping. I am giving roses to young ladies that don't know what to think of me. To ladies older than me, that seem ready to cry. To one who I thought was going to hit me, asked me what the hell I thought I was doing, but kept the rose anyway.

Meanwhile I notice a lady who seems to be following me. I notice I have given her a rose. Every time I stop and look at something, she stops. When I look up at her, she turns away real quick. Like she just noticed the Nutella was on sale. I keep on shopping and keep on saying Happy Valentines day. It was a blast. Finally, done shopping and out of roses, I go to check out.

I'm standing there, watching the people like I always do. Out of the corner of my eye I see someone coming towards me. It's my friend the Nutella lady and she's making a bee line for me. I turn to her as she gets to me. She hands me a note, says "I'm really shy, but would you call me", turns around and almost runs out of the store.

I open the note and it said something to the effect of. "Thank you for the rose, that was sweet. I am really shy, (I'd already noticed that part) but really wanted to say something. Here is my number, if you like, you can call me.". So I did. Right there waiting in line. LOL

She doesn't answer, but I leave her a message and tell her I'll call her when I get home. When we did talk, we set up a date. We actually went out for quite a while. Got to be the funniest, and the most unique times I've met someone

So I know all of you have met only on this site. I mean it is Meelp. But have you ever met someone in a funny way. Maybe just unexpected/ different.
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HNW- Cause thats a dangerous place for a Zipper
Posted:Sep 19, 2018 1:16 pm
Last Updated:Sep 20, 2018 3:03 pm
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Love Levi's 501's.
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Aging Gracefully On Here
Posted:Sep 17, 2018 1:54 pm
Last Updated:Sep 18, 2018 11:50 am
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I reactivated my account a few months ago. Re did my profile,added some recent pics, all from this summer. Did the search thing, sent out some messages to those around me that seemed interesting. I've been here off and on before, so I settled in for the wait. What was funny, was after a week or so I got a email, that stated, "I've turned you in for being a bot. Your pictures don't match your stated age. "

BIG NOTE HERE. At the time, I did have my correct age listed.

I replied back with, what are you talking about? No reply. Never heard anything from Customer Service, so figured it was a fluke. Then about a month ago, I get two more. Both calling me a fake, a bot. One stated they could tell from my message that I wasn't real. LOL For anyone who has read one of my blog posts, it's pretty obvious, I'm not a man of a few words.

So I decided to play. I have been rethinking what it is I'm looking for anyway, so figured I really didn't care at this point if anyone could find me in a search. So I changed my age to 96. Seemed like a good age. And I'm thinking, cool, this will put me out of the search range. I can have some time to just get my head around what I want, and not have to put up a ....Not looking at this time... banner on my profile.

I promised at the time I would do a follow up post about how changing my age to 96 would affect my time here. Pretty much forgot about it, but since someone reminded me.."rolls eyes", you know who you are. I decided it was time.

Things did not go as I planned. haha. I actually had more women and couples trying to IM me. Had quite a few messages, wanting to know how old I really was. My favorite, and she'll remain nameless in case she reads this, though I've never seen her on the blog, was something like.

Wow, you look really good for your age. What's your secret. I'd like to know more about you. yada yada......I think she's joking of course, so I respond back with something about the fountain of youth, that I stopped aging years ago. Then at the end, told her my real age. She responds back with, oh, well you shouldn't lie on your profile, that wasn't very nice.

I didn't even have the heart to reply back.

So I'm thinking some people don't really use the age parameter in their search. Some really don't care. Hell maybe some just really like the idea of the old geezer, who's about to kick the bucket and wonder if i have any money to leave.

Things it didn't change.

I still get messages, flirts and IM's from those lovely ladies in their 20's, who think I am hot, want me to move them down to Texas, and promise, "Just real woman, not game playing".

Still didn't help me decide what the hell I want. Or help me find someone that interests me that isn't 1700 miles away. Even in my new age bracket.

Was wondering though, do you put a specific age bracket on your preferences? Do you follow it no matter what? Have you broken it either way, older or younger?
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The Eyes have it.
Posted:Sep 11, 2018 2:01 pm
Last Updated:Sep 19, 2018 4:47 am
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I had lunch with three friends today. We met up at Twin Peaks, cause....um the food is really good there. We get this really cute waitress, she takes our order, flirts with us, yada yada. When she leaves I make the comment, "that girl has unbelievable eyes". And she did. Blueish grey eyes that seemed like they could look right down into your soul. Of course, I immediately got the rebuttable of, "with tits like that, you're looking at her eyes". hahaha, yeah they were three guy friends, if you haven't deduced that by now.

My response was, of course I love a great set of boobs, I love a nice butt. But look around the room. There are lots of nice boobs and butts walking around. None of them had her eyes.

From as long back as I can remember, eyes have always been a thing with me. It's one of the first things I notice on a woman. Sure, if you're walking away from me, going to notice your butt first, but if I can get you to turn around? Yeah, going to check out your eyes.

Eyes portray so much. They can show love, lust, desire, intelligence, anger, sadness and despair. They are truly the windows into the soul. I had a girlfriend about 8 ago, that I swear could stop me dead in my tracks with nothing more than a look.

On here, though a lot of us don't have face pics up, I do notice and check out the eyes while browsing. And there are some of you that just have gorgeous eyes.

If there's a question wrapped up in this post I guess it would be, do you notice peoples eyes? Are they as important to you as they apparently are to me?

Or is there some other aspect you notice, besides the obvious?
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It's a conspiracy!!!!!
Posted:Sep 7, 2018 7:49 pm
Last Updated:Sep 11, 2018 1:06 pm
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It's not the bots...sure they are there. It's not the scammers, trying to convince me to send money to some African country, cause if not they are surely going to be devoured by lions.

I enjoy being on this site. I really do. I enjoy the banter on the blogs, I enjoy reading the profiles. I've met and found some fun relationships on here. But the thing that always gets me, and I noticed this again the other day. The real conspiracy, that I am sure Meelp is behind. The thing that always frustrates me on this site.

The women that always seem to interest me the most, are not in my general area. not talking,it's a hour drive to go see her. It's like they all seem to be anywhere from 500 to 10000 miles away. Safe to say, waaaaaaay outside my driving range.

It's the ones that see things the way I see them. The ones that post on these blogs with interesting, intriguing and thought provoking blogs and responses. The ones that I think, I bet we could have fun together. The ones with great eyes. The ones I can envision kissing , because of those lips. The ones who can make me think, or rethink idea's I long ago sorted out.

It's a conspiracy I tell you...

You ladies frustrate the hell out of me. Not intentionally, I know, but it sort of reiterates by disbelief in soul mates. Wouldn't it just suck if you were in say..Texas and your soulmate was in Asia, Europe, hell wherever wasn't within a couple of hundred miles.

Keep being you, keep on enticing me with the comments, posts, messages etc. But know that I think it's a conspiracy that none of you live next door. Just saying....

Sure I like a lot of the blogs by guys, but sorry fellas, just not attracted to guys.
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The Lost Art
Posted:Sep 6, 2018 6:18 pm
Last Updated:Sep 20, 2018 3:04 pm
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I've always been a kisser. And before any smart asses like myself say it..no not an ass kisser. I just love kissing. Everything about it. Always have and sure I always will.

Just got home from a 5 hour first date. And yes, that was 5 hours without sex. I think she's one of BiggLala's good girls. We went for a drive to some vineyards close by. Had some snacks by a river, in great little park, and ended with a nice dinner. She had to go to work tonight. So while we didn't do much else, we did enjoy some wonderful "making out" at the park. And a great, see ya later kiss.

I have found more than once over the last couple of , a lady that would tell me. We have to stop. like stop what? Stop kissing? Like if we didn't stop kissing it HAD to lead to more. While I can't say I mind if it does lead to more..hell I a guy, it's never been my belief that it had to.

I've had girlfriends that enjoyed "making out", and sure lots of times it led to clothes flying off, like debris in a hurricane. But not always. In fact, I really enjoy the times, that there might be two or three great kissing sessions, before we actually found time to go further. Builds the anticipation. Sure lots of times, when it didn't lead to sex, I've had to go home and take matters into my own hands...well hand. But it didn't lessen the anticipation.

Is the art of making out, becoming a lost art. Did i fall asleep and someone wrote a new law...no kissing without intercourse.

I hope not, cause that will just have to be another rule I can't follow.

Are you a kissing bandit, or are heavy make out sessions just reserved for sex.
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Happy Birthday Japaneseass
Posted:Sep 6, 2018 5:36 am
Last Updated:Sep 6, 2018 5:15 pm
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Saw a post about it yesterday. Here's to wishing Japaneseass a very happy birthday. Here's hoping you have a great day, a great year and all the fun you can handle.

Happy Birthday.
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I've Rambled, now I Rant.
Posted:Sep 5, 2018 2:53 pm
Last Updated:Sep 6, 2018 5:32 am
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I rarely in a bad mood, but for some reason I was just testy all morning. While I have settled back into my normal mood, I thought just to make sure it was all gone, I should rant about something. But then, like a lot of times, I just couldn't think of anything to bitch about. Luckily an idea came to me. I could just combine some of the complaints I see on here, some periodically, some almost daily, into one rant.

Rant ON....

so tired of wondering if my dick size is the correct size, or should I get a dick reduction for the ladies who like it smaller. I can't tell because it seems no one wants to see a pic of it, though I keep sending it out. It has to be a part of the reason why no women at all have ever responded to a message on here. I retaliate by just sending out mass emails, bitching about being turned down, let them all know what they're missing, before they even reject me..It saves time.

Time that just wasting being on this site. Not that I don't have time, God knows I don't waste it reading all the profiles. That would just impede my progress in trying to figure out why there are 28,118 people on IM, but none of them have responded to me. thinking there are just 28,117 bots on there. the only one that's real!!! No wait, one responded. Crap, she's asking for money. It's either a scammer or professional. This site should just wave it's magic fucking wand and get rid of that once and for all. It should be easy.

Easy, ha! Why the hell can't I find the easy women on this site..you know those that I email with a "hey baby, horny as hell", and they respond with "Thank god I was hoping someone was...I'll be right over". I like it easy. Not all complicated like having to fill out a profile. The thought of having to type more than just.." a dude"..on my description, with a "I want a woman" on my ideal person just eats my lunch.

Speaking of eating. What is the deal with this site eating words off of my post. I type out , "While I was having fun under a tree, having sex, my dick filled and full, with emotions like splinters of my soul...A week later I go back and read the post and it says..While I was having tree, sex, my dick filled, with splinters.

I would have added more of the women's complaints, but not a woman.. a dude...READ my profile. It's right there in the description.

Feel free to add in anything I missed.
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Solitary Man
Posted:Sep 4, 2018 1:16 pm
Last Updated:Sep 7, 2018 4:55 am
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I took my daughter to the airport this morning. She's going through a nasty divorce, so I fly her down once a month to spend time with family. We've obviously talked a lot about relationships, love, and all the peripherals that go with it. While we were driving, she made a comment about how she wishes she could just get it together and make it easy like I do. I laughed, and told her that was just an illusion that I've gotten good at living with. She looked puzzled, but we were pulling up to the drop off, so she just said, well you know going to want you to explain that one.

I've been thinking a lot about relationships, mine in particular, over the last few weeks. This conversation, and knowing going to have to explain my comment to my daughter, made me delve deeper into the quagmire this morning.

The illusion, in it's most basic terms, is that while I happily divorced, not always happily single. About 13 ago, I gave it a lot of thought, and decided I would never remarry. Since that time, I've been faithful to that decision. It's not that ever truly unhappy, bouts of loneliness are few and usually short lived. It's more of a thought that missing something.

I have had a few longer term relationships, exclusive. I have had some FWB's, that were actually friends, some I still talk with from time to time. I've dated women that I never had sex with, and I've had a couple of "fuck buddies" that just wanted to use me. (thinking night moves by Bob Seager, "I used her, she used me, But neither one cared" ) Even been a third wheel in a couple of couples relationship. While I have been known to see more than one lady at a time, better in relationships if it's just concentrating on one woman at a time. I swear I don't know how polygamists can do it.

Some relationships ended because they moved away, a couple because the feelings just kind of fizzled, but most have ended in the same manner. Her wanting to take it to the next level, and me being faithful to my decision 13 ago. It's what the song I wrote, Take Me as I , is about. They tell me what they need to live, and it's just the one thing I can't give.

Delving deeper into the illusion, comes the thought, is it really what I want? While I can honestly say, I don't see the purpose of getting remarried at my age is, it doesn't mean I couldn't stay with one person for the rest of my life. Or that finding that one person wouldn't be a great thing. Personally, I don't need to be married to be faithful, have never cheated once. If I say exclusive, exclusive. Yet I know, not all feel the same, and the commitment means more to some people. not saying they're wrong. My resolute decision has admittedly cost me chances of that kind of relationship in the past. I like saying resolute, instead of hard headed and stubborn. It makes me sound more philosophical about it.

Now, after 13 , the part that is no longer an illusion is this. In any relationship that will stand the test of time, there has to be compromise. While I tend to be a giving kind of person, I have gotten very used to doing things my way. Simple stuff, like if I get up on a Saturday and want to drive down to the beach, I pack up and go. If I'd rather lay in bed and watch a movie, good to go. I don't check with anyone, see if we have other plans. While that example may seem petty, I thought so after writing it down, it is a concern to me. And not just because of my freedom, but because to me, that isn't the mind set that screams successful relationship.

sure over time, those ideals of freedom could be proven irrelevant, and I would overcome, what I consider to be a selfish mindset. Being single, has afforded me the luxury of that selfishness, but has it rewarded me with the happiness it was suppose to provide? I've had girlfriends who say, it doesn't matter to them, I'll always be free to do what I want. My argument is always, that wouldn't be fair to them. Not to mention, not sure that mindset would last, nor would I want it to.

So, yeah I laughed when my daughter said easy. Relationships or the lack of them , is rarely easy. Some would argue at least you had some relationships, I would counter with, did I? Or did I just have long term flings with ladies that i liked to be around and maybe even loved? Have I come too far to change my mindset? Do I just keep going like I , thinking that with blind luck, I run across someone who feels the way I do about marriage. I don't know, but it's running through my mind more so now, than when I started writing this 20 minutes ago.

Until I figure it out in my head, I guess I'll just keep on being the Solitary Man.
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