well IN MY CASE i SHALL EMBRACE THE FATE NO LONGER TRYING TO ESCAPE THE FATE ~  

cherharazard 41F  
2935 posts
8/31/2017 9:11 am
well IN MY CASE i SHALL EMBRACE THE FATE NO LONGER TRYING TO ESCAPE THE FATE ~

I didnt realized I wasnt pretty ~ or pretty bad ~ bad so bad that ~ bwoy ~
not one person in the whole of Britain
~ thats sounds soul destroyingly cyberkenectically embrarressing ~
i must be the ugliest baddest unworthy cant cook truied & totally failed lady in the world
The Queen Of Miss Not Good Enough ~

whats the point of buying nice clothes & being kind to yourself ~ when noone appreciates you ~
whats the point of flying the Flag of your Nation when men see you as a Dog on hind legs who cant bark ~
thank you Britain ~
you win I feel ashamed not good enough
you win ~

I wake up by accident thinking im a nice lady ~ when infact
I do cry ~
I only cry because I think im lovely & noone else see it ~ so instead of dieing each day I buy myself a gift &
& sometimes it helps
when I look in the mirror
it makes me feel like im good enough just for one more day

so many other things I wish to put in my mouth ~
looks like modern technolgy & preferable genre of beauty has rob me of a fate
I can never touch feel or just only imagine ~

thats is so not fair ~
im not permitted to be a complete lady slut whore fuck loads of men & lie about it ~

thats unfair ~

I need to change something & I dont know what it is ~
how about
i offer myself to 6 friends ~
al whole rugby squad of buddies ~
be a one night sacrifice for groups of men all
i dont know ~
bloody hell I just wish for one person to like me not all the people who prefer other people not to like me ~
just the one right person would be cool ~
I have so much passion as I WRITE IN ENGLISH ~ like people cant understand what im typing ~
fuck my brains out so i can stop thinking please ~
didnt realise the weave was so important is that how the fake bitches of the world win ~ men do not appreciate angels anymore
no more heros any more ~ what ever happened to our Sheros ~
replaced by weave & peodophiles ~

huh

help I do not wish to die unphucked &alone
all my good clothes & sexy everything will go to waste its not like the people of GLENFELL TOWERS ~ would appreciate it ~
what da phuck are they going to do with my nice things ~

feel like the men of Britain have committed lust treason when it comes to me ~
im the dead woman the one
the witch who got away ~
the one untouched by man thats my curse ~
that the curse ~
I CAN LIVE AS WITCH BUT ~ NEVER AM I TO FEEL THE TOUCH OF A MAN AGAIN ~THE PRICE I PAY FOR ETERNAL LIFE ~ SACRED SERVITUDE to THE GREAT REALM ~ LOVE WARRIORS & KISS MANS FEET ~ BUT NEVER WILL I EVER HAVE HIS AFFECTION I SHALL ONLY POSSES THE AIR & LANGUAGE HE SPEAKS & BREATHS IN ~


cherharazard 41F  
1997 posts
8/31/2017 9:51 am

im guilty of wanting to Breath ~
im guilty of never wanting to leave ~
Im guilty of saying I beleive
im guilty of wanting to please
~
I like the kind things about me
I cant be any other way
if I change im going to have to wear a wig bleach my skin wear jeans with flip flops during winter ~
help ~ will the virtues of the illustrious ladies please come back & win the real faith of passion again ~


cherharazard 41F  
1997 posts
8/31/2017 9:53 am

~ RasStarFairies are beautiful Butterflies too ~


cherharazard 41F  
1997 posts
8/31/2017 9:54 am

x ~ I do own white dresses as well ~ x


cherharazard 41F  
1997 posts
8/31/2017 10:26 am

i have no idea what a a real man is like
I just imagine if a really cool existed what would be be like
i have no idea what
im excluded from participating in most things in life ~ so i have no experiance
all my life i have been beautiful
i had know idea until now ~ wasted 30 years doubting my lovely self ~ now ~ i have no experiance
except in how to be alone happy content & sexy


cherharazard 41F  
1997 posts
8/31/2017 10:29 am

I dont think they want my attention you know Lord
to be honest
is there any one in the western world that like black ladies like me I do not want o bleach my skin or wear a weave just need aperson who might like me inside & out


cherharazard 41F  
1997 posts
8/31/2017 11:21 am

dont ask me for a one night stand if you dont wish the same fate for your daughter ~ oneday she is going to be crying on your shoulder ~ about the man who let her down & now instead of feeling bridal she is suicidal ~ thank you men thanks for the trauma
thanks
I hate the way you all have made me feel about my lovely self ~
now im totally ashamed for breathing now i hate myself thank you


cherharazard 41F  
1997 posts
8/31/2017 11:40 am

working my way towards the end ~ cant live anymore ~ you killed the greatness from me ~
the lovely lady no longer exist ~
just a person who really wish the air to be politely removed ~
i have the means the tools the rope the dope the unhappy the glad the bed the dress ~ the pills no thrills ~
slowly its im walking wards the happy deat* day ~ the same as a birthday ~ except sleeping foreve is better than waking up in a hell where people do not appreciate me & that hurts ~
expecially when you see big fat ladies with no teeth taking selfies with their fit men ~ amazing men will rather sit with their dogs than me ~
thank you
im shit ~ thank you
i heard you the first time


s2ndegree 60M  
8971 posts
8/31/2017 3:17 pm

I got this the other day from a lady actually older than me
after I asked here what she thought
about guys my age,


" Alone isn't the end of the world.It's quite
simply that you no longer exist in it!"

Using more than all the road!


Ienjoythetaste 70M
2566 posts
8/31/2017 4:36 pm

Don't give up if you do they have won. The world is not as dark as you are painting it. Yes at times the light does not penetrate very far and the gloom seems to be wining. Use the power of your mind and focus on what you want. It may take awhile but it will come.

My Queen is a black, large woman with weave and had the same problem/attitude as you quote in this blog. She is now recognising her worth not only to me but the world.

You have a lot of living still to do, so go and get it.

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cherharazard 41F  
1997 posts
8/31/2017 5:09 pm

enchanted sacred thank you ~ x I appreciate your words of reassurances thankies ~ moon smiles


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