Innocence Lost and Sensuality Found  

cowgirlup56 58F
4 posts
3/11/2017 1:22 pm

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3/18/2017 5:23 pm

Innocence Lost and Sensuality Found

So many years have past since my innocence was lost. Stolen and abused.

Leaving me wondering about the things that my mother taught me as a young girl.
She would teach honor and respect your man. The proper actions of lady and how she should dress and present herself in public. My mother stressed that a woman's sexuality was part of who she is and should be.

A young girl 17 years old meets a man 8 yrs older. Oh he is charming .... that southern accent. Saying all the right things to take this girls heart pound with excitement and stimulate her imagination about places she hasn't been and where she could go. He is kind and funny very tender ... he seems to understand the fear that wells inside of me the first time we make love and with tender hands and gentle pursuit he calms those fears and takes my innocence.

Those days change! Relocation to Texas changes those tender hands and gentle pursuit. Rough and violent are my days. Gone are the days of happiness and contentment. Life filled with imminent dangers. What will bring his anger today? Broken bones , bruised body .Will I have to endure yet another violent sexual night? I keep remembering my mother. Wondering what is it that I am doing wrong.

Life goes on, tears continue to flow, daily fear continues.

A child is born.

Things change ... I change, strength building inside of me. I take a job.

I see you from across the room. Who is that man there I ask?

Your popular with all the ladies, flirtatious and funny.! I keep my distance after all a Lady should take care how she presents herself in public. Even if she is only 23 yrs old.

You flirt and engage me in conversation. I am polite.

Your compliments are flattering. My eyes are black as night, my hair the color of a raven, curls thick as lions mane. You tell me how you want to kiss me and feel my hair in your face.

Terrified I keep my distance!

He see's you flirting... I am terrified! Now I have to go home...

You see me.. bruised, battered.... your ANGER is like nothing I have ever seen.
You leave. I wonder is this anger towards me?
You return... your words I will never forget " He will NEVER hurt you again!"

Leaving work.... your there in the parking lot waiting. Seeing you there takes my breath away.

You walk towards me , meeting me. You take me in your arms and kiss me so tenderly. Running your fingers through my hair. You draw away look me in the eyes and whisper " I knew it would be like this!" I am overwhelmed and begin to cry.

We arrive at your house, walk inside. Seated on the couch you touch my side , I pull away. "Ive hurt you?" you say... no its not you. You raise my blouse finding bruised flesh. I cry because I am ashamed. You kiss my tears and ask me stop that you would never hurt me. You misunderstand my tears.

You whisper " I want to make love to you, NOW!" You reach and remove my blouse and bra. Lightly touching my skin, kissing my bruises. You remove my pants exposing more bruising. I want the lights off... I am scared ; scared that I am ugly! You comply and turn them off ... the room is black as night. Returning to my side you take my hand and lead to the floor where you begin to kiss me, touch my body not in a raw sexual way but as if I am being worshiped. Never have I felt such a sensation. You whisper " you are so beautiful !" We kiss our bodies close . I can feel your heart beat, you hold your breath as I start to touch you.

I am starting to feel something something that I have never felt before. A moisture welling inside of me a desire to be touched. Its so dark in here!

I start to respond to your touch. Touching you like I have never touch a man before. Caressing your body. I run my hand down your stomach between your legs to your balls ... you gasp and pull away... "I'm sorry. Did I hurt you?" Your response is " no I'm not just used to anyone touching me there." Ahh I now see that this worldly man , my protector is a man who is like me in many ways. Realizing this I say " turn on the lights I want to see you, I want you to see ME"

With the lights on our bodies together, entangled, passionately kissing, touching, tasting we begin a journey of discovery together.

Tasting your body sweat, so sweet, kissing down your body reaching your cock so hard pressed against your stomach. I have never tasted a mans cock like this. Taking it in my hands running my lips over the head.... your moans excite me you pull me up telling me " I'm not ready to cum."

You turn me to my back and begin to suck on my erect nipples touching my body with your finger tips. Oh so careful not to hurt me. I am so excited that I say to you ...
"let me have you now!" I turn you on your back , mount your body straddling your cock ... slowly moving my way down as I look into your eyes. You touching my body ... telling me " your so beautiful. I want you for my own." Our rhythm picks up ... sweat rolling down my back, between my breasts. Deep sensual penetration, rocking back and forth to a climax that I had NEVER experienced before. Feeling the intense pulsing of my pussy you release your cum... shooting deep inside me.. we collapse in each others arms. Lay there for what seemed like forever caressing each other.

So this is what My mother was trying to teach me ....

I found my sensuality

texpassinthur 63M
19 posts
3/17/2017 12:13 pm

seems like this was before my time, but I like it

cowgirlup56 replies on 3/18/2017 5:24 pm:
Yes Baby .... way before your time!

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