Am I the only one... am I the only one... breathe me in...  

easy_going2014 52M
6683 posts
3/25/2017 9:46 pm
Am I the only one... am I the only one... breathe me in...


Am I the only one... am I the only one... breathe me in...

Do you ever wonder if you are the only one...

We hear so many "I luv u's"... do you stop to listen to their heart... or is it just a "Risky Business-like" revolving door of your lovers entering your life like the style of clothes changing... hmmm...

food for thought my little pretties... this gem came by way of the movie "Garden State" years ago... my had introduced me to the movie and the soundtrack... and, Zero7 "In the waiting line". Sophie Barker was one of the lead singers in this band...

you know that I luv to blend music into my stories... some true... some not... with this one... pieces of you... pieces of me... hmm...

she said (early on)... I'm not looking for anything long-term... I don't want another husband... I just want to have fun... will that work for you... "Yes" - I said... "fuck yes"... "of course... that works for me..."

I had a long chat with her awhile back... because I felt like I was her period... she laughed at that... for some reason I make her laugh... she asked me what did I mean that I was like her period... I said that it seemed that we were only getting together once a month... all of the excuses coming from my melonlicious breasted dealer... and... they all have been real... but, she asked me if I was mad at her... and, I was not... I just wanted to be with her more than that monthly bleeding sensation...

she bit her lip... "you are right"... "My life is very busy"... "my time gets eaten up quickly"...

I just nodded... are we not good... do I not please you... or... is it something else...

we talked for awhile... she said... 'ok'... it was her fault... she was not good at communicating... she is good at interrupting... and, other things... but, not in the listening department... although... she is special...

So... now that we've seen each other more often... yes... the fireworks have gone off multiple times for us in the past month... hmm... three more firsts... including a night at the range...

"I know to be there
When and where, I’ll be there
You know what’s to be said
We said out loud, we never said
My premonition of the world comes to me
A sun in your eyes from the middle life
Says I’m alright
You said you don’t have to speak
I can hear you
I can’t feel all the things you’ve ever felt before
I said it’s been a long time
Since someone looked at me that way
It’s like you knew me
And all the things I couldn’t say
Together, to be
Together and be
Together, to…" -- The xx - "Together"

While we were talking... those lyrics were running thru my mind... I had shared "the XX" with her... asked her to watch the video of "Islands"... precious... she did... and, she understood...

then... after our most recent moment of passion... which was an incredible first for me... I shivered and moaned as her wish was fulfilled... she had wanted me to cum... she felt cheated the prior time... even though she had been pleased...

she wanted me inside her... and, not getting that... she told me that the next time... she would focus on me... entirely... OMG... is this possible... can this be happening to me...

the answer is yes... it is not 'no'... I don't like the word 'no'... I don't like to utter that word... and, I like it less when it is given to me... by itself without explanation...

anyway... we had gone to the range because she wanted to feel a different sensation... there was an element of trust... there is a calmness when you are holding something in your hands that can be a life changer... one hundred percent focus is required... she luved the fuck out of that experience... afterwards, she proceeded to fuck my brains out... thank god it is only a temporary condition... because, I did recover...

but, then... she texted me the reason for this post...

she sent me this song... Selena - "I could fall in love..."... Now, she doesn't waste words on anything... she gets to the point quickly... albeit she may back out quickly with so many postponed opportunities... but, I read the lyrics to this song... and... I thought... "warning, will Robinson..."...

"I could lose my heart tonight
If you don't turn and walk away
'Cause the way I feel I might
Lose control and let you stay
'Cause I could take in my arms
And never let go
I could fall in love with you
I could fall in love with you
I can only wonder how
Touching you would make me feel
But if I take that chance right now
Tomorrow will you want me still
So I should keep this to myself
And never let you know
I could fall in love with you
I could fall in love with you
And I know it's not right
And I guess I should try to do what I should do
But I could fall in love, fall in love with you
I could fall in love with you..."

Of course, many of you will be saying... what do you expect easy... you are the one that teases with the lyrics to songs... I cannot deny this... however... the song she posted is sending a specific message... one that says... "I could fall in love with you..." It's not... let's be happy together... or... I like you alot... or... you are special... so... it kinda thru me for a loop... just sayin'...

She has been so honest with me... we talk about her life... her closet... my life... my closet... our versions of each other... at times... when we talk... she pauses... before she answers... an instant poker tell... she weaves a great story... in that regard we are on the same plateau... as she speaks there will be a smile on her lips... the hesitation... she knows I don't forget much... I've connected dots she never meant to share with me... moments of truth... it is all good... but, maybe too fast... too furious...

so, Sophie Barker's song came into play... I don't know that I have professed my love for Sophie... I do not consider myself fickle... at all... not even with my sliding top 30... which I had her read the other day... she laughed... alot...

Maybe... I'm over-thinking this... maybe... it is just a taste of my own medicine... It's not as if she posted the song "Love" by the band ""... afterall... I introduced her to that song... and to you all... but... she does make my heart beat faster... I've told her that... she does give me what I hoped for... and... she wants to... she has... she will... it is not a dream... it is not a passing fancy... it is now... it has been over 10 years since I first met her... and, just now in the past three months has the reality of lovers set in...

so... am I the only one... is that what she is thinking... No... she didn't post this song... I posted this on my FB page tonight... she immediately... "liked" it...

OMG... where am I going with this... this is not Dreamboy and Azhar... this is me... and a real woman... a melonlicious breasted woman that sees me... breathes me... tastes me... wants me...

we have soaked thru skin... we have breathed each other's essence in... we have realized our fantasies...

It's ok if you all don't weigh in on this one... maybe... I'm just thinking out loud... maybe... I'm not posting this on the blog... maybe... I'm just dreaming... yes... that could be it...

Sophie Barker - "Breathe me in"

"Breathe, breathe me in
Let me soak through skin
Lie next to me, through the night
Tell me what you see, all your dreams and fantasies
Swimming your head before I sleep

If I fall in the middle of your heart
Whether we ride this life together
Be awake for me
Move over here
Come sit by my side
Hold me closely day and night
Less is more, give me more of what I need
Breathe, breathe, breathe me in

If you fall in the middle of your life
Feel like times running out, we won't break
We will grow together
Know that you are loved, you are loved here and now and forever
I won't let you go ‘til the sun burns out on me

Bless this moment, bless this moment, bless this moment
You’re the only one, you’re the only one, you’re the only one
You’re the only one, you’re the only one..."

Do you care if you are the only one... Does it matter, as long as you get what you need...

It does to me...

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easy_going2014 52M
10832 posts
3/25/2017 9:48 pm

Aaron Neville - "Tell It Like It Is"

If you want something to play with
Go and find yourself a toy
Baby, my time is too expensive
And I'm not a little boy
If you are serious
Don't play with my heart, it makes me furious
But if want me to love you
Then, baby, I will, girl, you know I will
Tell it like it is
Don't be ashamed to let your conscience be your guide
But I-I-I-I-I know deep down inside of me
I believe you love me, forget your foolish pride...

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author51 56F
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3/26/2017 4:35 am

As you know one of my favorite songs came from the movie Garden State which is Blue Eyes. For me and my past relationships I have to be the only one and them for me.It was the same with the two other lovers I had.I do not see anyone else while with them and neither did they.

Live in the moment,have fun while you can and take it one day at a time hun.

One can never have enough JOY in their life...


sweet_VM 61F  
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3/26/2017 6:28 am

I can see you deep moved by this lovely lady. Easy everyone is busy in life you have to make the time both of you. Enjoy what you have hugs V

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easy_going2014 52M
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3/26/2017 6:30 am

    Quoting author51:
    As you know one of my favorite songs came from the movie Garden State which is Blue Eyes. For me and my past relationships I have to be the only one and them for me.It was the same with the two other lovers I had.I do not see anyone else while with them and neither did they.

    Live in the moment,have fun while you can and take it one day at a time hun.
Hi Joy.

thanks for your comments.

Yes... you shared that song... I like Cary Brothers... lyrics and melodies...

I like that point of view...

It's just that the song got me... when I post songs as responses to something or to motivate, inspire or just arouse... there is no guarantee as to how it will be received...

quite often... it hits the mark...

so... she's never said "I luv you"... we haven't said those words to each other although we have had some very special moments of intimacy... the lyrics just got me thinking...

It's taken me a lifetime to begin to interact with Venutians... I need another set of lifetimes to begin to understand them... if that is possible... just sayin'...

just sharing my thoughts outloud...

it appears that someone is reading them...

thanks...

have a great day!!!

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easy_going2014 52M
10832 posts
3/26/2017 6:42 am

    Quoting sweet_VM:
    I can see you deep moved by this lovely lady. Easy everyone is busy in life you have to make the time both of you. Enjoy what you have hugs V
Hi sweet_VM.

thanks for the visit...

yes... she is a special woman...

I agree with what you are saying...

it's just that the song she sent me... wasn't just an innocent set of lyrics... it took her time to find the right one... you know... like it takes me time to find that gem... that one that hits the mark... well... this one hit the mark...

I am enjoying our time together...

thanks for taking the time out of your trip in Mexico... can't wait for some pics... you know I made a request...

have a great Sunday!

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