What's that I'm feeling?  

secret_lade 46F
8885 posts
11/20/2020 3:43 am
What's that I'm feeling?


I think it's called.... Emotionally drained.

Between COVID and and work and life, I've lost a little bit of myself. I realized this morning that I found a fucking whisker growing out of my chin yesterday and didn't immediately think...

Damn! WTF is that?? I need BLOG about this monstrous discovery! The world needs know of this horror...

Instead, I plucked it out, wrinkled my nose in disgust at myself in the mirror, and flushed it down the toilet. I didn't even save it to show the Spawn my discovery.

I love to hear her exclaim, " My God Mom!"

So, here I sit this morning. I've already cried a little, my Middle turned 18 today. I now have 2 grown and one Spawn of Satan.

I just woke and already feel exhausted, but I know I have a full day of work ahead of as it's orientation day and I have present a good face for the new peeps.

And, it's the Spawn's weekend at her dad's. I would keep her home, but her birthday was yesterday and her dad deserves get celebrate it with her as well... I already hog the holidays.

So, it's not really a Happy Friday.... But, it is a Friday.

Friday!

secret_lade 46F
5787 posts
11/22/2020 2:44 pm

    Quoting citizen4722:
    Don't worry about the whiskers. You've got to pluck up the courage to face the new peeps. No doubt you'll pull through
At least I have the masks on my side.... Nobody can tell I'm the bearded woman when I'm wearing one. LOL


citizen4722 63M  
69835 posts
11/22/2020 2:19 pm

Don't worry about the whiskers. You've got to pluck up the courage to face the new peeps. No doubt you'll pull through


lindoboy100 58M
22630 posts
11/21/2020 7:23 am

    Quoting secret_lade:
    They grow up way to fast. I'm really struggling with this one... Maybe it's the Marine thing, I'm having a hard time with that as well. Maybe I'm just crazy... I think I'm leaning toward crazy...
I don't even know why you'd question that, everyone knows you're crazy!

Ah McLade, I really do wish I could wrap you up in my arms now! Always bear in mind that he'll always be your boy, and he'll always love his mum! My cousin's son joined the Marines about a year ago, my cuz goes from worry one minute to unbridled pride the next, it must be torture........more cuddles coming your way!

Pull ma finger.........


secret_lade 46F
5787 posts
11/21/2020 6:31 am

    Quoting lindoboy100:
    That's pretty tough, not seeing your boy on his big day.......funny to think that all of a sudden he's a man, when did that happen......but aye, all will be well.......and in the mean time, here's a wee cuddle from the daft jock Ye're a canny gorgeous lassie McLade!
They grow up way to fast. I'm really struggling with this one... Maybe it's the Marine thing, I'm having a hard time with that as well. Maybe I'm just crazy... I think I'm leaning toward crazy...


lindoboy100 58M
22630 posts
11/21/2020 4:53 am

That's pretty tough, not seeing your boy on his big day.......funny to think that all of a sudden he's a man, when did that happen......but aye, all will be well.......and in the mean time, here's a wee cuddle from the daft jock Ye're a canny gorgeous lassie McLade!

Pull ma finger.........


secret_lade 46F
5787 posts
11/20/2020 9:44 pm

    Quoting easy_going2014:
    it'll be ok

    find that quiet spot

    put yourself in the easy going zone

    and listen to this

    Jude - "I Know"

    got such a pretty smile
    It's a shame the things you hide behind it
    Let 'em go
    Give it up for a while
    Let 'em free and we will both go find it
    I know there's nowhere you can hide it
    I know the feeling of alone
    I know that you do not feel invited
    But, come back, come back in from the cold
    Step away then from the edge
    Your best friend in life is not your mirror

    Back away, come
    Back away, come
    Back away, come
    Back away
The first time I watched City of Angles... I cried all the way through it. I just couldn't understand how they could kill her off after all he went through to become human. Oh my... The kitty just heard me playing this song and came running... I've been sleeping, she must have been waiting for me to wake up. It's a beautiful song, thank you.


secret_lade 46F
5787 posts
11/20/2020 9:17 pm

    Quoting Paulxx001:
    Alcohol is an agitator.
    Grass is a smoother.
    Life... let's you realize that it's not a race...
    ... it's a fricken marathon.
    You're doing OK. Breathe. 😊
I think the worst part about today was... That I didn't actually get to see my son on such a momentous birthday.


secret_lade 46F
5787 posts
11/20/2020 9:14 pm

    Quoting pocogato12:
    Yep this Friday is a bummer- just like a couple of other days. Time to grill pork chops and watch Chopped
My whole week has been a stressful bummer.... But, it will be ok. I just keep thinking, there are a whole lot of other people out there who are dealing with things like illness and homelessness and if this is all I have to worry about, I'm going to be just fine.


easy_going2014 54M
14366 posts
11/20/2020 7:42 pm

it'll be ok

find that quiet spot

put yourself in the easy going zone

and listen to this

Jude - "I Know"

got such a pretty smile
It's a shame the things you hide behind it
Let 'em go
Give it up for a while
Let 'em free and we will both go find it
I know there's nowhere you can hide it
I know the feeling of alone
I know that you do not feel invited
But, come back, come back in from the cold
Step away then from the edge
Your best friend in life is not your mirror

Back away, come
Back away, come
Back away, come
Back away

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Paulxx001 63M
17929 posts
11/20/2020 4:14 pm

Alcohol is an agitator.
Grass is a smoother.
Life... let's you realize that it's not a race...
... it's a fricken marathon.
You're doing OK. Breathe. 😊


secret_lade 46F
5787 posts
11/20/2020 3:41 pm

    Quoting Paulxx001:
    Balance... it's tough to find, but it's what'll keep us all sane

    What a great milestone; something certainly to celebrate! 👍
Unfortunately I won't be seeing him on his birthday to celebrate. Cripes, I'm crying again... Nose Hairs caught me in the midst of an emotional moment, I don't think he quite knew what to do. Thankfully I contained myself.


pocogato12 68F  
36230 posts
11/20/2020 3:37 pm

Yep this Friday is a bummer- just like a couple of other days. Time to grill pork chops and watch Chopped

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secret_lade 46F
5787 posts
11/20/2020 3:34 pm

    Quoting  :

Binge watching Netflix? Count me in! I need to finish watching American Horror Story 1984. I'm also wondering when the new season of Stranger Things is coming out??? Ugh!


secret_lade 46F
5787 posts
11/20/2020 3:31 pm

    Quoting benard69:
    Well if it was Good Friday frickin Winter would be over with....
I second that!! I'm just not wanting to be dealing with the white stuff this year.


secret_lade 46F
5787 posts
11/20/2020 3:29 pm

    Quoting mc_justmc:
    Turkey Day is coming, so you can relax, well, after you fix a huge dinner. But then you can relax, well after you spend the other half of the day cleaning up. Uhmmmm, well..... good luck with that.
I'm non traditional when it comes to Thanksgiving. This year I'm already planning on making meatloaf and mashed potatoes. Yum!


secret_lade 46F
5787 posts
11/20/2020 3:28 pm

    Quoting big54al:
    I was thinking more like Valentine's Day sex
Yep, I'm that schmuck that got married on Valentines day! (He chose the date.) I blogged about it earlier this year... I now call it The 'V' Word.


secret_lade 46F
5787 posts
11/20/2020 3:26 pm

    Quoting TicklePlease:
    These are emotionally draining times! Here's to Friday!!
Here's to Friday! I hope you had a great day!


secret_lade 46F
5787 posts
11/20/2020 3:25 pm

    Quoting luv2suk1966:
    Oh dear. Keep pushing through, girlfriend!! You've got this!!
    At least you found your little whisker all by yourself. I had NO IDEA I had a thick, grey whisker coming out of my chin a few years ago. We were out to dinner with our grown kids. All of a sudden, they all started pointing and laughing, and my husband said, "Hold still." He yanked the sucker out and handed it to me, as they all died laughing. Now I touch and feel that area every single day, making sure nothing's there. Nice, huh??
Oh my lord.... You poor thing!! LOL That made my day. Thank you!


Paulxx001 63M
17929 posts
11/20/2020 6:48 am

Balance... it's tough to find, but it's what'll keep us all sane

What a great milestone; something certainly to celebrate! 👍


benard69 63M/63F  
5610 posts
11/20/2020 5:31 am

Well if it was Good Friday frickin Winter would be over with....


mc_justmc 60M  
6825 posts
11/20/2020 5:16 am

Turkey Day is coming, so you can relax, well, after you fix a huge dinner. But then you can relax, well after you spend the other half of the day cleaning up. Uhmmmm, well..... good luck with that.


big54al 66M
2117 posts
11/20/2020 5:00 am

I was thinking more like Valentine's Day sex


TicklePlease 53F  
13123 posts
11/20/2020 4:59 am

These are emotionally draining times! Here's to Friday!!


luv2suk1966 60M/54F
1479 posts
11/20/2020 4:55 am

Oh dear. Keep pushing through, girlfriend!! You've got this!!
At least you found your little whisker all by yourself. I had NO IDEA I had a thick, grey whisker coming out of my chin a few years ago. We were out to dinner with our grown kids. All of a sudden, they all started pointing and laughing, and my husband said, "Hold still." He yanked the sucker out and handed it to me, as they all died laughing. Now I touch and feel that area every single day, making sure nothing's there. Nice, huh??

Have a great day, and be nice to one another.


secret_lade 46F
5787 posts
11/20/2020 4:51 am

Thank you


XHamburgDave 77M  
10462 posts
11/20/2020 3:49 am

Friday

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secret_lade 46F
5787 posts
11/20/2020 3:45 am

Yep, that's right. Two of my kids have birthdays one day apart... It's called anniversary sex, folks.


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