Shame  

wickedeasy 69F  
9285 posts
4/13/2017 4:34 pm
Shame



When you’re young, you are so full of yourself. I remember this particular day, this particular dress. It was long, olive green, a tee shirty thing with a scoop neck front, long to the floor. I was very slender and had very small breasts so did not wear a bra with, and it made me feel grand. It was a hot day, my skin was deeply tanned, my hair frizzy and wild from the humidity as I left the house to meet a friend for a drink.

The sidewalks were filled with girls in halter tops, cut off daisy dukes. Men shirtless in shorts. The sun relentless. I was happy, flipflopping my way through the crowds, pausing to look at the stuff the street vendors had out, eager to see the person waiting for me.

A hand on my arm, pulled me to a halt, the flow of the walkers balking. A woman of about 40, with two others of similar age, tightened around me. I smiled helpfully, thinking them in need of directions.

“Put on some clothes” she hissed.

She tossed my arm down as if it were infected. The three marched off, erect, disdainful.

I stood there, unable to move. People who had heard, seen scurried off. A young man, tried to say something but left, lowering his head. The sidewalk began to move again. I was buffeted by people wondering why I stood so still, there, in the middle. I turned, let the flow of the bodies move me along until I came to the cross street that led me to the side street, to the turn, another turn, to home.

I slipped off the dress, it fell to the floor.

I stood in the shower, the water beating a steady rhythm, in time my heartbeat slowed to match.

It is not easy to like yourself. A woman stole from me this time.

ground, time. me

You cannot conceive the many without the one.


wickedeasy 69F  
32415 posts
4/13/2017 4:36 pm

it is wonderful to grow up and change. that was then. this is now

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You cannot conceive the many without the one.


greekphilosopher 56M
4085 posts
4/13/2017 4:44 pm

I think the shame should of been with the 3 witches. I should of been there!


wickedeasy replies on 4/14/2017 3:28 pm:
grins, with you bye my side, I would have bitch slapped her

tickles4us 57M
6786 posts
4/13/2017 6:13 pm

Don't you just love those kind of people.... love to put your foot right up their tight asses.

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wickedeasy replies on 4/15/2017 5:13 pm:
a tomato? oh my

christylovesfun 46F  
16833 posts
4/13/2017 6:29 pm

I used to get an awful lot of that kind of shit from perfect strangers when I was young. It took me so long to figure out why.

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Her infinite variety. Other women cloy
The appetites they feed, but she makes hungry
Where most she satisfies. For vilest things
Become themselves in her, that the holy priests
Bless her when she is riggish. ~~ from Antony & Cleopatra


wickedeasy replies on 4/15/2017 5:14 pm:
because you are a goddess my darling

author51 56F
80922 posts
4/14/2017 1:01 am

    Quoting greekphilosopher:
    I think the shame should of been with the 3 witches. I should of been there!
Precisely. No one has the right to shame someone with judgement or tell one what they should wear and what to do.Yet it continues.Very sad indeed..

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HamburgDave2 76M
16567 posts
4/14/2017 1:14 am

Evil Bitches, glad the couldn't steal your Spirit

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wickedeasy replies on 4/15/2017 5:15 pm:
she di for that day. in the end, no.

goodatpoetry2 69M
16571 posts
4/14/2017 4:19 am

I'm hoping that you just washed off the filth of that woman touching you and put your dress back on.

But being young, you probably didn't.


wickedeasy replies on 4/15/2017 5:15 pm:
you're right. sighs

azriel1970 49M  
26862 posts
4/14/2017 5:42 am

It amazes me how awful some folks are to others...
I know you have learned since then to be much different then they were.
Hugs sweetie.


wickedeasy replies on 4/15/2017 5:16 pm:
ah, hugs are good.

pocogato12 67F  
28799 posts
4/14/2017 6:07 am

Back then... and some people said those were the days... well, sometimes they weren't. I still can picture women just like them

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wickedeasy replies on 4/15/2017 5:17 pm:
church ladies...........that's what I called them. not al of them were, I know. and a lot of church ladies were deliciously wonderful.

spunkycumfun 59M/64F  
36125 posts
4/14/2017 11:53 am

That woman was rude!
I love frrizzy hair!


wickedeasy replies on 4/15/2017 5:18 pm:
I used to fight my curls. then one summer I just gave up. and lo and behold, my crazy ass curls became fashionable......lol

KItkat1415 57F  
19788 posts
4/14/2017 1:36 pm

People sometimes say things and don't understand how much their words wound others. Those women were awful, and products of their time. That is not an excuse, just simply a bit of an explanation.

If there was a way to ask them what they were thinking, they more than likely would recount how they, too, were accosted by someone in their past, who made them feel the way that they made you feel. That's why many therapists say that there are cycles of abuse, or cycles of shame or guilt.

I wish that had not happened. I know that when I see people being judgmental, I really try to not shirk from it, but try to engage people on why they feel the need to say the horrible things that they do.

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wickedeasy replies on 4/15/2017 5:19 pm:
I do too NOW. then I was too tender, too fragile in my sense of self to engage or fight back.

sweet_VM 61F  
80355 posts
4/15/2017 9:25 am

That is really a bitch! Very rude to say the least. Really sad it had to happen to you. It sure made you a strong and better women in the end. hugs V

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wickedeasy replies on 4/15/2017 5:26 pm:
i was a hippy, maybe that's what ticked her off. who knows really.

it's more about the feeling of being singled out and alone in a crowd and made to feel "wrong". people do it all the time. in a hundred small ways. to people who are inked, pierced, shave their heads, wear statement clothing. i love to go through Harvard Square and see it all. to me it shows life.

smartasswoman 62F  
31657 posts
4/18/2017 8:52 am

No doubt she was jealous of how young, beautiful, and carefree you were.

This story is a good reminder to me not to judge how younger women are dressed. Not that I would EVER grab someone's arm and scold them, but ya know, sometimes those thoughts float by. Good god why shouldn't they enjoy being young and free?


wickedeasy replies on 4/18/2017 12:47 pm:
my niece is often an attention receiver. she is nearly 6' tall so people notice her. and while she is not slutty per se, she wears what she wants and does draw disapproving looks. the fact that she is with an old lady keeps most from speaking to it.

kzoopair 68M/66F  
25453 posts
4/18/2017 8:00 pm

It might help to imagine her being hit by a bus.

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wickedeasy replies on 4/19/2017 2:15 pm:
rotflmao

I love the killer in you kzoo

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