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Life after death
Posted:Apr 2, 2016 5:23 am
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December 1st 2015 my life changed forever. Dad died after a three week battle of his body shutting down on him. You sit up at night wondering what could of been done sooner, did I miss something that could of stopped all of it from happening? You sit and wonder why you are here and he is gone. Your friends and lover tell you "it was his time to go" "You was there, there was nothing you can do" they tell you if you need to talk they are "there"too. Well it's been almost four months and nothing has gotten easier, or better. Your "friends" that tell you they will be there has slowly disappeared again and the one you count on the most is slowly walking out on you too because you are so full of depression, anger and hurt you don't know what to do. You go through the motions, get up, walk dogs, go to work and maybe eat because you need to. You watch your Mom sit and cry all the time an ask if there is anything you can do and you know you can't because the one thing she needs most is her husband to walk in the door. Weekends are the worst. He traveled for a living so come Friday afternoon the dogs are at the door waiting on it to open and it never will again with him coming through it. You wonder why you are here and he is a pile of ashes on the dresser in a box? You want . to scream and cry but are afraid to break because you are suppose to be the strong one and take care of your Mom. Your life line is when you get a stupid text message that makes you cry at 6:45 in the morning. You float above water and you keep waiting for the final time to just sink and you know it is coming and you brace yourself for it. You wait for that second "death" to come along because you know in the back of your mind it is there and going to happen and then you know you will totally be shattered into a thousand pieces never to be fully whole again. What do you do after the deaths of a loved one?
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